Today I feel ANGRY
Grrrr....I hate being angry. The feeling is like a stab that cuts you deeply into you heart and leaves such incredible pain and for some reason we hang on to it. I know it's a choice, but sometimes there is a grieving period that is necessary to overcome that incessant need to lash out and destroy something.
I can "shake it off",
I know it.
I just wish it never happened in the first place. It's so debilitating. I can't imagine how the Savior overcame such emotions, but I have been able to overcome it in other aspects of my life, so I know I can grow tolerance for those that are intolerant of EVERYTHING. I can't help but have a defense mechanism that is primeval and uncontrollable.
It's my weakness...
I can't stand people that have no consideration for others. That have no real grasp on life and are not merciful or empathetic on those that are working hard at making life easier on them. I wish I could be more like Ghandi, the Savior, and all others who have overcome the trivialities of human psyche and emotion. I have never felt such remorse for these feelings. I feel like an addict trying to overcome these feelings.
I can "shake it off",
I know it.
I just wish it never happened in the first place. It's so debilitating. I can't imagine how the Savior overcame such emotions, but I have been able to overcome it in other aspects of my life, so I know I can grow tolerance for those that are intolerant of EVERYTHING. I can't help but have a defense mechanism that is primeval and uncontrollable.
It's my weakness...
I can't stand people that have no consideration for others. That have no real grasp on life and are not merciful or empathetic on those that are working hard at making life easier on them. I wish I could be more like Ghandi, the Savior, and all others who have overcome the trivialities of human psyche and emotion. I have never felt such remorse for these feelings. I feel like an addict trying to overcome these feelings.
This is from a long time ago. The funny thing is that I'm totally over this and a lot came of it. I guess I just realized that there is a much more serious issue at hand. He may not know it, but I think my neighbor is a high functioning autistic man, he lives off of routine and people are not his forte. Life would be hard like that. Tolerance is the last thing that I should expect from him.
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